I had the stunning realization that it's been a year since I've made one of the most important and life changes choices of my life. I am pleased to admit that I do not regret it one bit. If I got the chance to do my life over again I would make the same choice.
I have seen a world.
I have heard it's sound.
I have felt it's emotions.
I am ready for more.
I have been to concerts.
I have met new people.
I have spoken new words.
I have eaten new foods.
I have crawled on the floor.
I am excited for more.
If it wasn't for that one single choice... that final yes... All this would be different. I would not know the happiness I now know. I would not have felt certain emotions both painful and good. I would not know people and the values they share. I would not be the woman I am becoming.
I have never been so scared in my life but I have never been so excited either. I have never been more cautious or more adventurous. Is this a part of growing up? I have asked myself if perhaps I am growing up too soon? Too fast? Too young? If I am I don't mind. I would not have it any other way.
When a friend of mine had passed on, one of my brothers read me a quote about how he no longer has to suffer through this miserable life. In that moment I realized, this life isn't miserable at all. Even in that moment, one of my most painful, I loved my life. It's my God-given gift and I cherish it. All of it.
I can't wait to see what this next year will do.
Happy New Year!
Aubrey
P.S. Let it be known that this is my first post
that did not have any misspellings.
(at least according to the spell check.)
